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Ah, I've been having some interesting dreams latly. couple days ago I actually had one where I was a toucan e_e...And once more, that silent shadow with thundering hooves known as my mental 'nightmare' has returned for brief visits to my mind. Much of my dreams now, have become memories relived. Sometimes it's new ideas for my story, or even a grand idea for a piece of work that I dont have the skill yet to even attempt. Sometimes I find myself face to face with my own personas, and just talk to them in my dreams. Sen herself has always seemed so much stronger than I am, even if she and I are more or less the same person, theres always been two versions. Sen the human stuck on earth, and Sen the nyxian that shines through in me sometimes. You probably think I'm some kind of crazy, but I'm not. Weirder things have happened in dreams I suppose, but to me, normal, lucid dreams are just another step to another world. On the other side I see Sen as a strong, wise being, who perhaps tolerates me, sometimes helps me. I'm not sure if she's ever been mad at me, but I have in the past detected a bit of dissapointment in me. I know that the more stressed out I get, and the more I become frustrated with people, she always looks stronger in my time of need, which gives me hope to do better and not take things so personally. There was a time not to long ago where I simply started to hate Sen, perhaps because I was under the impression that her world is perfect, but I was wrong. No world, be it here, there, or anywhere outside our own dimension, (Or even our own solar system and galaxy, since we can't disprove theres life left in our own universe too) is ever, never perfect. I suppose you could call Sen a sort of spirit guide. Becasue I doubt without her inner inspirations for things, I might not have ever been the person I am today. I started dreaming of Sen wayyyyyyy back, years ago, I think early 2000, but perhaps maybe a few scattered times before. (I remember a dream where I distictly saw a giant white bird watching me with scarlet eyes, and spoke to me when I was seven) but alas, I can't really remember what she said then. I think overall, it comes down to Sen and I being the same being in different worlds. weather that world is only within the realm of dreams or not, can never be proven nor disproven. Fact is, Sen taught me to trust when I had none to give. She taught me to be strong when I was feeling depressed and no one knew. She gives me insight sometimes, and even on ocasion foresight (I've never been wrong if I precict something at random, ye'can ask my mom xD) And it isnt just sen, either. theres other minds in there that whisper, but none as strongly as she does. Even if the twilight legacy is a mere story my brain pulled out of thin air, I think its amazingly clear for a dream :3 Lots of people I know don't even remember their dreams unless they were weird or unsettling, disturbing or morbid. Some only remember crazy dreams, and others not at all. Sometimes they can only see delerious versions of dreams in the half-sleep half awake threshold.
I have spoken to others who also see otherworld beings, some in person (Not giving names) and others in other ways. many are in dreams. One in particular, is odd, because I had the exact same dream she did, only from my perspective, of the same place and deserted, odd town/museum/thing/w-e. >_> Though, even in wakign hours me and said friend (SHE'S MAH BRAIN TWIN HA) always seem to somehow know what the other is up to somehow. Woo, california to Canada! XDDD!
Alas, this journal is gettign long and creepy so I'll cut it now x3
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